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| sometimes there are days that are more important than others. Monday > my birthday. I'll finally be able to complete my dream of winning a championship in high school. this is my best shot. I won a league championship, I've been to the state finals twice, but i havn't been able to place a banner on the wall of dwight morrow for winning a team championship. that drought is going to end on monday because i say so. I am going to make sure it happens. 18 years have come and gone, and i'm actually quite happy. except i now can go to jail =0 | | |
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| In about 12 hours, I will walk through the Academies @ Englewood as a Senior. Senior year is supposed to be the best year of them all, but yet I still can't imagine that it will be. It is my last year to really be a kid. The last year to really not have anything on my mind. Sure, there is college, but I feel that I'll always have something next to do there. I've always been one of those people to really put everything they have into anything. I feel that is where my confidence comes from. Even when I do not 100% believe in something, I won't let my actions show it. But this upcoming year does not feel as if it is here.
The other night I went over to Peter's house up in Franklin Lakes. Like always I spent the day with Karl and just chilled and whatnot. As I dropped Karl off, I told him that this my be one of the last days we could hang out like this. He just looked at me and stared, and didn't really have a reply. As I spend my last free day in the summer before I start school, I'm thinking about the future. I will probably be far away from the friends I absolutely adore. Next summer, I can promise you that I won't spend it in New Jersey. I'll either be in North Carolina as a counselor at a Cross Country camp, or I will be working on Work Crew somewhere in the United States.
One thing that I know I've done is not wasted my High School Years. I can confidently say that I am happy of what I've decided. I could have easily turned into someone different, but God did not let that happen. As I have grown up, my future has become more fuzzy. I always thought I knew what I wanted to do, but as the time is coming to decide, I can't do so. I worry too much. Why can't I just not worry about everything? I do know though that Senior year will be one I will truly remember as good, sad, and sweet.
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| I think I have grown up. I am no longer a 5 foot 5 freshman. College is around the corner. Everyone is leaving. Friends moving to different states. My friends off to college. I'll be spending the summer at N.C. State. I'm 6 feet tall now. License, Car, and Summer Breaze all ready to be enjoyed. Life is different, but I love it. I just don't want it to grow up. I am now a Senior, I just don't feel like one.
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| So its been a while since I've actually posted something on xanga. I guess nothing really seemed that important, but that streak will end today. So I just came back from my college tours in the state of Virginia, and I absolutely loved it. I visited UVA, University of Richmond, The College of William and Mary, and Mary Washington. All four of those colleges are unbelievable. However, the real issue for me is to go to somewhere where I feel that I belong. I've always thought I wanted to go to a huge college where I could get lost in everything. But I think that changed for me.
When I visited UVA, it was everything and more to me. I met my cousin there and after the tour, he took me around for a "real" visit. We went all through the campus once again and told me everything I wanted to know. The campus is extremely beautiful, and I felt that I could fit right in. However, what it comes down to is if i want a big college atmosphere, or a small one.
So I was driving along RT. 64 when we passed Richmond. The campus was right off the road, so we decided to stop by. And, I am so happy we did. The campus was unbelievable. By far the best college I have ever seen. The thing is that there are only 3000 students. However, after going on the tour the next day, (yes, I called up and asked for a tour because I liked it that much) I think that is the type of college that I would thrive in. With an average class size of 18 students, I feel that is where my best comes out of me. Besides how big a college is, another issue came to both my dad's and my mind. The price. However, even though richmond is about 45000, it has one of the biggest endowments in the country, where the college makes sure that you can afford it. UVA is only 36000, but it is hard to get money out of state. If money wasn't an issue, University of Richmond is far and beyond my first choice in colleges. However, if money doesn't come, that I'll have to rethink things.
College is a real big issue with me. I want to go somewhere where I can do bigger and better things. I was really looking for a sign, and I think I found it. On the tour, my tour guide (from Iowa) said he wanted to go to Richmond because he stopped their on a whim between visits from UVA and Duke and didn't even think about Richmond until he stopped. However, when he did stop, he fell in love with everything about it. That was exactly what happened to me. Whatever happens to me, God will help me with my decision, but I think that I felt something in my soul while I was there that gave me a different feeling. That feeling was the same one that I felt when I first stepped into A@E, and that is something extra-ordinary.
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